Domino

Malam itu Juliet terdiam memandangi sebuah foto di dalam telepon genggam miliknya. Foto seorang lelaki. Lelaki sebayanya. Teman sekolahnya. Teman sekelasnya. Juliet termenung memikirkan kenapa harus lelaki itu. Lelaki yang tidak disangkanya menjadi lelaki yang disayangnya. Tiba-tiba tangannya tergerak untuk meng-capture foto lelaki itu. Ya, foto Romeo.

Seorang lelaki yang berhasil membuatnya move on dari sang mantan kekasih. Waktu yang cukup lama, sekitar 7 bulan, lucu sekali bukan. 7 bulan dihabiskannya untuk memikirkan lelaki yang sudah tidak memikirkannya lagi.

Setelah hari itu, Juliet semakin sering memikirkan Romeo. Memandangi fotonya. Dan tersenyum bodoh saat membaca percakapan dari Romeo di group chat kelasnya. 

Seminggu berlalu, Juliet dan teman-teman kelasnya yang sekarang berada di bangku kelas akhir sekolah menengah akan mengadakan perpisahan kelas yang diadakan di Malang. 

Selama kegiatan di Malang, matanya tak pernah terlepas dari Romeo. Mulai memperhatikan gerak-geriknya, dan mulai tersenyum bodoh dengan kepala yang tertekuk. Senyum bodoh diam-diam. Senyum bodoh yang kadang hanya tertahan di dalam hati.

Beberapa kali Juliet berhasil memperhatikan Romo tanpa sepengetahuannya. Sampai saat itu tiba, saat pertama kali Juliet sedang tersenyum bodoh di dalam hati seraya memperhatikan Romeo, dan tanpa sengaja Romeo melayangkan pandang ke arahnya juga. Membuat Juliet seketika menunduk, menyembunyikan pipinya yang merona merah.

Setelah kejadian itu, Juliet dan Romeo sering tak sengaja saling menatap. Saat Julit mencuri-curi kesempatan untuk memandanginya dari jauh. 

Akan tetapi, Juliet tau kalau Romeo sudah menaruh hati pada orang lain. Gimana sih rasanya, sayang sama orang, tapi orang itu sayang sama orang lain. Sehingga Juliet terus menekan rasa yang disimpannya untuk Romeo jauh di dalam hatinya.

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Well, cerita itu gue. Ya. Gue. Gue banget. Kerjaan gue ngeliatin foto doi, mikirin doi, dan kemudian gue inget kalo doi udah punya kecengan. Apasih rasanya? Pernah ga sih lo kaya gitu? Pernah ga sih lo berada di posisi gue? 

Gue sayang sama dia, dia sayang sama orang lain. Kayak domino tauga, I fall for you and you fall for the other. Yakali tapi gue bisa apa? Ngomong di depan muka dia kalo gue sayang sama dia? Misi bunuh diri itumah. 

Gue deket sama dia aja ngga, gue chat sama dia aja ngga, gue ngapain? Cuman sebates sayang dan ngeliatin dari jauh. Ngeliat wajahnya aja seneng, tapi pas gue denger nama dia, gue langsung sakit.

Lo pernah denger lagunya The Script yang If You Could See Me now ga sih? 

They said, "I still look for your face in the crowd."

Yah yaudahlah ya, gini aja, sedih ya, ngga deng biasa aja. 

See you stalker!! 

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If You Could See Me Now by The Script 

(Oh if you could see me now)

(Oh if you could see me now)

It was February 14 Valentine's Day

The roses came but they took you away

Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm

Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone

And I'll never get to show you these songs

Dad you should see the tours that I'm on

I see you standing there next to Mom

Both singing along, yeah arm in arm

And there are days when I'm losing my faith

Because the man wasn't good he was great

He'd say "Music was the home for your pain"

And explained I was young, he would say

Take that rage, put it on a page

Take the page to the stage

Blow the roof off the place

I'm trying to make you proud

Do everything you did

I hope you're up there with God saying "That's my kid!"

[Chorus:]

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

(Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now would you recognize me?

Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me?

Would you follow every line on my tear-stained face

Put your hand on a heart that was cold

As the day you were taken away?

I know it's been a while but I can see you clear as day

Right now, I wish I could hear you say

I drink too much, and I smoke too much dutch

But if you can't see me now that shit's a must

You used to say I wont know a wind until it crossed me

Like I wont know real love 'til I've loved and I've lost it

So if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom

And if you've lost a dad then someone's lost a son

And they're all missing out, yeah they're all missing out

So if you get a second to look down on me now

Mom, Dad I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Oh, oh

Would you call me a saint or a sinner?

Would you love me a loser or winner?

Oh, oh

When I see my face in the mirror

We look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Yeah I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see, you could see me now [x2]